Ok so it's been awhile since I have updated. Those of you who read my livejournal know a bit of it. Hubby lost his job and has been home for a few weeks. He has a final interview with a big company tomorrow at 11:00. So, lets all keep our fingers crossed.

I started going back to the gym this week. I went and did cardio and weights one day, walked another, and went to yoga this morning. I have lost a pound and a half already! woohoo! Now I just need to get my butt motivated to lose the last 60 pounds. Yeah it sounds like a lot but I have already lost 60 so I'm halfway there! My next short-term is 30. I read an article on a girl who had a stroke at 21 and she was not THAT overweight. It is scary how much I have tempted fate. The good news is that I havn't had a gastric attack all week! I was suffering so bad I was about to go to a specialist. Yeah dummy, just eat right and exercise. I have to lose 2 pounds a week until November to reach my goal by then.

I went to Yoga this morning and she said that when you recognize the fear that is holding you back and allow it to continue you are just perpetuating the cycle of fear. So I am going to keep that in mind this week.

Photographer has invited me on a photoshoot this weekend. I can't wait. Alpha Mom on the other hand has not talked to me in a good while. She didn't answer her phone when I called and doesn't answer e-mails. I am so sorry that I'm not worth a small hello even if it is just to say how busy you are. I am really getting tired of it.

At 7 I am going to drop by the neighborhood "Girl's night". I really want to meet other moms but I don't think the world is ready for me to play charades. So, I am just going to drop in with a salad and get out. Then we are going to a birthday party for a friend. I jsut hope Bubble lasts long enough.

the last thing on my mind is well..am I pregnant? I don't know. Hubby and I were not very careful the other night, and it was pretty close to time so we will see. The bad news is that I have to wait another couple of weeks to find out. I wouldn't be upset. I would continue to work out and eat healthy and lose the extra weight. I can't say that I wouldn't be disapointed if I'm not, but I certainly would not temp fate again.